MsGrimm

Over the years I have posted many pieces of art on DA. I started while in high school, took a small break, then once adjusted to college I continued. When my dad was diagnosed with head and neck cancer all art came to a screeching halt. I no longer saw beauty in the world, no inspiration. My time was fully devoted to my family. Luckily I had amazing friends both in real life and online that cared for me. They told me not to give up my passion for life. Their persistence got me into the spirit once more. Before I knew it, my dad had kicked cancer's ass and is now on the road to recovery.

With my dad going through recovery, and my family moving into a wonderful new home, I too have healed. I managed to come back to the wonderful world of art in full-swing, making  an art shoppe on GaiaOnline, and doing commissions like a Boss! I've just posted several of these commissions. Out of curiosity I clicked on my gallery to see everything I have displayed. my computer crashed twice and I lost a lot of my artwork. Luckily I had saved several of my older pieces on DA. As I looked at these older submissions, I started to realize how much I have grown as an artist. It also made me realize how much I have grown as a person in general. As the lines in my artwork became thinner, my skin grew thicker. The better the detail in clothing, the more I began to care about my self presentation. As my characters posing became more diverse, the more I started take chances. My art might not be the greatest, nor the most creative and original. none of that matters to me now. I see progression. In both my art and myself. It makes me proud to see where I've come from and how far I've traveled to get to where I am today. Now I'm left in wonder at where I'll go from here.

~Heather Sumner
   AKA MsGrimm

It's been nearly a year since I last posted a journal entry. Surprised? you shouldn't be. I never update journals, not even for my college courses. I don't understand why I forget to do it! Maybe it's because I wait until I've accumulated enough things to discuss that may be interesting to readers? It's that and/or the fact that I'm just too lazy to keep track with my own life via journal.

Anyways, I do have a few new things to talk about. In July of 2010 my dad was diagnosed with head and neck cancer. This was only a short time after he was diagnosed with cronic COPD emphysema. Monday through Friday for three whole months he went in for radiation treatments. One time in each of those months he also received the strongest dosage of chemotherapy treatment. It was a long, rough battle, but just in time for Christmas he had successfully beat the cancer.

Throughout this battle I was stressed to the max trying to reassure my mother that everything was going to be fine, when I didn't know that for sure myself. I was also enrolled full time in college in what was the hardest classes. I would be on campus half of the day then come straight home to take care of dad, homework, & housework while my mom was at her job. I had no time for my friends, for myself, or for my art.

Now that my dad is cancer-free I have bounced-back and am ready to draw. I've proven that you can come back new and improved from even the most stressed-out situations with my Katsumi picture. If anyone bothers to read this I hope it's somewhat inspiring never to give-up on the arts, you'll always find your way back. n_n

Hello possible readers (if I have any). As I said in my last journal dated in June of last year I really suck at keeping journals. If it's not my own stupid forgetfulness, it's my unpredictable life and everyone in it that keeps me away. And it's not just with the journal either.

I haven't been able to fulfill my love of art in quite some time now. A couple of months ago my desktop fried and it took me awhile to get a laptop. Once I purchased my beautiful Asus I realized something: I could not do my artwork without my Paint Shop Pro X program. I looked everywhere in my room for it! My room is very neat on the outside. It's not until you look inside my closet or in my drawers to realize how much of a packrat I truly am. I think it's actually an inherited disorder passed down to me from many generations of women in my family! >.<

Anyways it took me a week of trashing my room before I found it! I immediately installed it into my laptop and drew a couple of chibi drawings for some friends. After  that I went on a long hiatus thanks to college: The bane on my inner artist! I believe all of my teachers meet and conspire against me by assigning ridiculously long and nearly impossible assignments to complete all within the same day or week and are all made due at the exact damn time!

Even as I'm writing this rant I am supposed to be working on my demonstration speech in Public Speaking which I need to memorize by tomorrow at noon, make an outline for a 12 page anthropology term paper. The outline itself is due Friday (3 days from now) and I haven't started it! I also have ea 5 to 7 page research page due next week for English I haven't started, 2 health quizzes on STIs, birth control, and genitalia next week, and lastly an Algebra exam. Math has always been the hardest subject for me. For some damn reason (maybe this is all a nightmare or an alternate world) this Algebra class is the easiest for me!

Needless to say my schedule has been booked and when I do get a break from it I am too exhausted to work on any art. I miss it so much and so I'm glad I got to submit the 'Demonstration Girl' today. I'm so happy that I got weasel art into an assignment for a class. When this semester is over I'll have a couple of weeks before I start the summer semester and maybe, just maybe I can get back to my beloved art world!

I really suck at keeping journals. Hell I've been on Live Journal for several years and I've only posted 2 things on there n_n; Well here's a brief summary on what's up with my life.

I'm battling with getting enrolled at this stupid community college right now. I'm enrolled for my freshman year. Now it's all about the Waiting Game on how much it's gonna cost, how much Pell grant money I'm gonna get, and whether or not I'm gonna have to have a student loan.

Oh yeah, I'm no longer going to go for graphics design. Nope that field is too damn competetive for me. Instead I'm working to become a sociologist which has so many branches and job opportunities out there. I'm gonna get my Associates in The Arts Degree at OTC then I can transfer to MSU and go for my Bachelor's.

Aside from school, I have been searching for a job for quite some time now. I have been on at least 4  localized job-posting sites, gone through my newspaper a billion times, and went from place-to-place. I've never worked before so this is extra hard and the fact that it's summer and all the teens wanna summer job. Oh yeah and the economy is in ze toilet still. I think I'm gonna work on this App. for Camp Bow Wow. It's a kennel for REALLY rich folks who wanna ditch their dogs while they go on vacations. it's one thing I have experience at: I've got 2 dogs I take care of all of the and I've stayed at my neighbor's (who I barely know) for up to 2 weeks at a time to look after their dog while they're on vacation. The same for my great aunt.

I honestly don't know where I get all of this 'free' time to get any art done. I have a couple commissions I'm still working on that are past due n_n; Luckily the people I'm doing the art for are pretty reasonable and understanding. Hopefully I'll keep improving on my art and on keeping track of my journals >.< lol!

I know I have LOTS of pictures of Zetsu I've created in my gallery, but here's a shocker:He's NOT my favorite Akatsuki character. *gasp* I know!!!! <Whoa I just acted like Craig Ferguson. Anyways my true favorite Akatsuki member is Deidara followed by Sasori and thanks to my friend Jeffy, Hidan. I am a member of gaiaonline.com which is a huge forum site/role-playing community. I often play as Zetsu in various Akatsuki RPs. He is a more mysterious member so it's easy to play him since nobody can grill me if I get out of character because nobody know his character that well. I over-exaggerate his split-personality which is LOTS of fun. There are many Zetsu pics I can find to decorate my posts, expesially ones for various alternate-universe or AU RPs. So after searching forever, I breakdown and make my own character lol.

Yeah, I probably didn't have to explain the whole ordeal...but it's 10:57pm and I can't sleep and am bored lol.